07/03/03
I'm at my aunt's house, so yea...it's in Peoria...in IL...yea, it's exicting *sarcasm* lol...but's it's ok here.
I am getting SO pumped for the Concert...17 more days!!!!! AHHHH!!!! I hope I meet Zac!!!!
News: I just went to church the other day, and I saw my bud Alyssa...We haven't talked in about 6 months because we just needed a BIG break...ie: we were @ eachother's throats...anyway...I offered to serve, and she recruted me b/c they only had 2 servers...so I was stuck...
Ya see, I never really had a problem with being mad w/ her, but I love harmony...and we were anything but in harmony...so, I finally decided to put off our hiatus...and try to be friends again. Needless to say, we had had enough fighting and we are friends again. I'm so happy b/c I had temorarily been missing a best friend. I just miss having a sister to talk to. (we were like sisters) I'm glad we are "back together", but I have to say hi to her...HI LYSS! lol...I missed ya babe!!!
Remember all the N'Sync adventures we had together...
All the mall trips with the stalker boys...(which btw, they were looking @ u!)
All the Hanson fun nights, you liking Taylor's sexiness!
All the all-nighters we pulled just writing our stories...
All the fights we had, that we'd try to forget...
All the times that I called first, just to pretending like there was nothun wrong...
All the times that we made too much noise 4 your rents...
All the times Ed and Chris came over
*especially that one time we gave them a MAJOR makeover...lol...at least I was nice to Chris...lol...Ed's a HOOKER!!!
All the N'Sync movies, and phiascos we had
Our N'Sync concert...LANCE SHAKIN' HIS ASS BABY!!!! :) ::yum::
All our pizza dindin's
Your roller b-day bash...lol...me fallin on my ass a lot that day...
My obsession with killing Britney Spears (did I mention that has not faltered?)
All thefights we had...about you...lol...
Yea well...
Goodtimes!!!!!!!!!
lol...I'll call ya girly...
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ANYWAY:
If you wanna know what's goin on in my love life: tell me when you find it! Urg! I'm sorta waitng for the concert to come & go...some teeny fantasy might be fufilled there! lol...who am I kiddin'? I just want Zac Hanson to fall in love with me, NO BIG DEAL! *sarcasm*
I actually screwed up royally in the love dept. with this guy named Matt.
Long story short:
I was a total bitch to him, and basically, I deserve the cold-shoulder. You guys may not know what it's like to be in love; but I do. I know what it's like, because I am right now. Unfortunetly; I will never get that chance with this wonderful guy. He was such a sweretheart to me all the time. He was so easy to be around. He never made me nervous, unlike most guys. He was soo special to me, and I never knew it until he was gone. Dosen't that always happen? :*( I miss him so much, but I could never ask him to come back to me. He's way, way WAY too good for me!
*deep sigh*
I just wish I could tell him. I just wish I could be with him.
If he ever reads this, I'll die! I don't want him to worry about me, b/c I know; since he's such a sweet guy, he will. There goes my one good chance.
I wish he just knew how I felt...
anyway; I'm sry for makin' ppl depressed...but that how I am today...sry guys!
My mood is: Depressed/longing
